I've made the decision to try and look for a job and let me just say it's been quite stressful. It's not necessarily the job hunting part that has me all worked out, but it's the "what am I going to do with my babies" part that scares me.
With Riley, I only worked part-part-time (maybe 4 -8 hours a week) as a nail tech at a day spa and it was completely relaxed. Then, when she turned 3ish, I started her in pre-school and she loved it. The only reason she even went was because she said (at 3) "momma, I wanna go to school and make friends." How do you turn a kid down, right? So, when we decided she was going to school, I decided to go back to work.
Then, I had Mr. Ronan and knowing that he is my last child, I had opted to not work (with Ryan's support) for at least the 1st year of his life. Now, he's 20 months, completely attached to my hip and the fact of the matter is...it's a lot of pressure to survive on one military income. What's awesome is that we have a home, we rarely go without what we need/want and our kids are completely taken care of. It would just be nice to have some extras here and there without the stress.
So here I am, trying to figure out what I want to do and the hardest part is visualizing Ronan with anyone other than me for 8 hours during the day. Riley is at school and I know after school, Ryan could get her almost right away...but Ronan...he'll be with someone else and that scares me. The socialization will be good for him. He's definitely a momma's boy and it can be nice at times but frustrating at others. I don't know...perhaps I'm rambling on, but talk about feeling like your heart is being torn into pieces...that's how I feel.
Anyway, I guess I just had to vent and let it out. If anyone has any advice, bring it. If you have any job leads, even better! Haha.
2 comments:
oh my friend, it'll be okay! i struggle every day with having brody in daycare, but the enjoyment he gets from it truly is great. he does things that i can't do for him if he was home with me. he gets doted on all day there, and gets to play all day and go outside, whereas at home i'm trying to get things done and can't give him my 100% attention.
ronan will love the socialization. i ask brody who his friends are and he lists off his daycare friends. ronan will be doing the same before long!
keep me in the loop on how the search goes!
You really want a job? No, don't do it! How about making scrap pages and selling them on you-know-what?
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