My stomach is in knots...

And it's not really about the flight tomorrow.  I always get a little antsy when we head back to Pittsburgh.  You know when you move away from your hometown and make "home" somewhere else, the old "home" doesn't feel much like home anymore...

Not only that, my in-laws live there.  They don't just live in Pittsburgh.  They live in the same town as my parents.  They go to the same grocery stores.  They shop at the same mall.  And here I am wondering how I'm going to survive through 4 days without running into them.  How am I going to do it?

I have replayed scenarios in my mind...like if we were walking down a street and they started to come towards us...I'd slowly grab the kids and duck into a store or restaurant.  Or would I just scoop them up and turn around?  Or would I cross the street and look the other way?  I don't know.  I do know that I don't have anything nice to say to them...which means I shouldn't say anything at all...and I don't know how I would get away with that if I had to see them face-to-face.

I am sure I'm overthinking.  I'm sure I'll have a good time, especially because I'll get to see friends and family and the kids will get to spend quality time with my parents...but man, the anxiety they cause me never really goes away when I return to that city...