(Riley at 1 day old.)For 6 years, I've been a mom. And the nine months leading up to Riley's arrival to this world, I dreamt about what motherhood would be like, who she would look like, what her personality would be and feared all the things I would do wrong. I remember the adrenaline rushing through my body as the doctor was delivering her (and I couldn't feel a think, THANK YOU EPIDURAL!) and truly how scared I was of the unknown.
I didn't know how to hold a baby.
Were we sure her head wasn't going to fall off if I didn't support it properly? And was it a good idea that the hospital let us leave with her, only two days later, knowing that these 25-year-old parents knew nothing? Probably not...but here we are, 6 years later...and I have this truly amazing daughter who teaches me everyday what it means to love unconditionally.
She tells Ryan and I that she wants to live with us forever, or "until she is big," whatever comes first, I guess. And we are okay with it -- as long as she knows that when she and Ronan are older, momma and daddy are going on vacation alone! Ha ha. But, it's the innocence in all Riley says and does that makes me look forward all the birthdays she has ahead of her!
And of course, it's still a learning process for us. There are days I probably say things to her I shouldn't and times I stand in the hallway trying to think of how to respond to her latest question or tantrum. I'll probably have to pay for her therapy for all the ups and downs we'll have, but the greatest thing is, is that I'll probably be there with her!
I love you, nug. Happy 6th birthday!
She tells Ryan and I that she wants to live with us forever, or "until she is big," whatever comes first, I guess. And we are okay with it -- as long as she knows that when she and Ronan are older, momma and daddy are going on vacation alone! Ha ha. But, it's the innocence in all Riley says and does that makes me look forward all the birthdays she has ahead of her!
And of course, it's still a learning process for us. There are days I probably say things to her I shouldn't and times I stand in the hallway trying to think of how to respond to her latest question or tantrum. I'll probably have to pay for her therapy for all the ups and downs we'll have, but the greatest thing is, is that I'll probably be there with her!
I love you, nug. Happy 6th birthday!
And this year, we couldn't go completely nuts with lavish gifts, but she did get a very nice present. The "Entendo DS" and something she really wanted: Heels. (They aren't real heels. They have some height to them, but they aren't stilettos or anything...)
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